The struggle is so real. Really Real!!!
I have left my job I was working at for four years, or more. Anyway, I have some health issues I am currently going through. It was a scary moment for myself and my family. My husband and I decided to just let me leave that job and become a stay at home mom. I was working for a company that manufactures appliances for a very well known product. It was easy work, repetitive motion, and sometimes–well let’s not lie here–it became physically demanding. I am going through some physical health problems that have hindered my life immensely. I have good days and bad days, but all in all I am pushing through. My family and friends are so supportive. I do miss my co-workers a lot. I had a really great team of people I worked with, but I had to say goodbye or risk being paralyzed.
It has been a struggle since February to decide how to blog about this. I will just blab it out there the best I can. I woke up one morning paralyzed on one side of my body. It wasn’t a permanent paralysis, but it was so scary. The emergency room doctor diagnosed me with Cervical Radiculopathy. I had a CT Scan and an MRI scan done in the hospital. We found out also that I had narrowing of the spinal cord. Strange diagnosis huh? Yea I looked at him like he grew two heads just then. My husband had the same look on his face as I did. So they gave me a referral to a spinal orthopedic specialist. I took all my papers and test results to the doctor when I met him for the first time and he then tells me he wants me to try physical therapy and see a neurologist. I was like OKAY, WHY??? I was confused. Why would I need to see that doctor for. Well because the pain that I was describing and the feelings I have sometimes and at that time my orthopedic doctor didn’t think it was related to my neck. Then they set me up with my Neurologist. Great guy! Actually both doctors are wonderful. It’s amazing to finally get someone who listens and not treat me like some idiot.
Meeting this doctor was fun. He has a great attitude. He makes me do a bunch of tests that seem silly, but they are important and relay a lot of information. He then sends me for another MRI, but this time it’s just of my brain. Okay then, my brain. HMMMMM. By this time I am scared and confused. I got the test results of that one back I believe the next day or two days later. Anyway, I was at physical therapy when he called me. He said some things I didn’t want to hear, but on the bright side I am getting somewhere. I have been dealing with chronic pain for most of my life. At least all that I can remember. Some days I am perfectly fine, and then the very next day I cannot get out of bed. I feel awful, and I just don’t want to move. Not even to go to the bathroom. It just hurts too much. So my doctor tells me my MRI scans are in, and that I might have MS. Multiple Sclerosis…
All I know is I couldn’t really speak much. I am still in shock and not dealing with it well till this day. He sends me back to the imaging center to have a spinal tap done. This was three days before Easter. You talking about painful. I think I rather be shot. I don’t wish one of those tests on my worst enemy. The test results came back clear though. The doctor is still concerned about my MRI scans. I have three scars that show up as some white matter on my brain. They are watching me closely. It may be one of those things where we caught it early, but it’s too soon to tell.
I still need surgery on my neck, but I am really thinking about it. I have lived with it for a long, long time. It was because of a car accident back in 1999. My daughter is fixing to turn 21 so it’s been about 20 years. I have dealt with it this long. We are starting to believe that this flare up with my neck had to happen to find the issue that happened with my MRI brain scans. I still to this day don’t have answers, but I finally found two doctors who believe me about what I am going through and are listening.
I pray everyday that we will get answers. I hate putting my family through a struggle. It’s hard to go through this. Chronic pain is nothing to play with. It doesn’t just affect you. It hurts everyone around you. It really breaks my heart to do that to my family. So here we go. I am on another journey/quest to find answers. All the signs seem to point to MS, but even that is a long road to prove if you have it. We will see.
Please just remember me and my family and our friends as we go through this journey. I know God is in control
Have a blessed day